Changes

So I kinda have decided to make changes in my life as of yesterday after i blogged. I got into a big fight with a friend and honestly it sucked. It's not easy pretending you're strong and everything is okay. I mean, loosing someone isn't that bad anymore, you get used to it. It's just you have to prepare, get ready for everything to change. It has to happen, it always will, change. you can't escape it, just accept that shit. The easiest way I have found to cope with change is just turn numb, you know? Not feel everything so much just let it happen, don't over think it, complain, just let it flow. I had already had problem with that friend, but I think that when something bad happens its to grow and get better. It's another one of those "moments" where you find out who your real friends are, where their loyalty lies. To me loyalty doesn't have to be that you tell me every single thing everybody says about me, because they will say stuff. They always do, somehow everything i do is known and i honestly don't mind. Loyalty is when you know FOR SURE that that friend will stick up for you or speak up when something that's not true is said. You could be friends with my enemy for all I care, as long as you have my back. It's also not keeping important stuff from each other, like things that could end up hurting the person in the end. There's always backstabbers, two faced people, shady people (that can be manipulated so easily), its just how it is. I don't want to sound like a heartless bitch, but you kinda just have to stand up, wipe the tears, suck it up, and not care. It's one of the changes I have decided to make.
(Video: Things Are Changing by Gary Clark Jr.)